Man, what a great post. I love your honesty. I doubt you are in the same boat as me, but this post at least lets me be vulnerable enough to explain my story.
I don't know about you, but long story short- I started my business out of necessity. Because we were young stupid kids who accumulated debt. Some situations were out of our hands, but a lot of it was willing (cars, eating out WAY too much, trips, etc.). We also didn't pay taxes for 2 years when I started my "business" and she started styling hair as a sole prop. Well, let me say this. If you don't pay taxes on any income, you will get a surprise at the end of the year even if you think you have a ton of write offs. Anyway, we started paying high interest stuff instead of low interest IRS bills and they just kept stacking up. So, here I am with my almost 1.5 year old boy, manning up and really giving this window and blind cleaning thing a shot. My point is, some of us may have built our businesses out of necessity. Whether it be tragedy/invariables that led to debt or complete negligence and immaturity (my story), some guys may HAVE to start a business and why not something we are already good at. Even though I may receive a lot of checks in my best month, shit comes up. More employees with longer hours = more money, more gas, more equipment, that watered pole you've been looking at, the other truck you had to buy, higher tax bracket (or even just starting to pay current on top of your back taxes, like me). I didn't even think twice when he said he couldn't afford it. Also, I work only 6 months out of the year, besides blind repairs, I am a chipmunk during the summer, I have to stash my cash somewhere so we can pay off the $6000+ a month recurring debt that we've accumulated over the past 7 years. And yes, don't forget the babies needs, they seem like they come out of nowhere.
I want to clarify that I love what I do. It took a lot of hard work and mental breakdowns and tears to get to where I'm at. I have no education, no business experience. I just have a passion for what I do and a couple of good guys/mentors/family members to help me through when times are rough (the freaking winter and let's be honest, the really busy months, too). I have found something in myself that I didn't know was there. I'm honestly proud of myself and I think a very essential and positive feeling to have for your own self is pride.
ANYWAY. Just wanted to be real for a bit. I COMPLETELY hijacked the thread.